Joe Strummer

I have a dog. He is really a puppy but has become the size of a dog. This is difficult for both of us. He is in a dogs body but does not know what is expected of a dog, and only understands how to be a puppy. As a result he can't figure out why he is not always making me happy. This can get a little frustrating for both of us.
He was named after the late great Joe Strummer of the Clash and the Mescaleros. I think it is important to give a dog a name they have to live up to. Dogs need inspiration. I also appreciate and respect the positive side of a bit of rebellion and I am sure this Joe Strummer will live up to that. The original Joe Strummer played a 1966 Fender Telecaster that originally came in a three color sunburst with a white pickguard. After joining the Clash the guitars body and pickguard was refinished in black auto primer, by 1979 the word NOISE was stenciled on the upper part of the body. I am sure if my Joe Strummer had thumbs he would also play this same style Telecaster.
Strummer is a happy dog, Oh so happy, devoted to his family and full of kisses. His feelings are easily hurt when he doesn't get it right but Strummer bounces back quickly, he is curious but fearful of things he does not understand. He is growing, tall and skinny, loosing baby teeth and has an amazing irresistible coat. Long and lean I am sure some day he will have the moves of a graceful ninja but right now he is very clumsy, tripping, slipping and falling and getting tangled in things.
We have a morning routine Strummer and I. He goes from room to room and wakes the house. People have places to be. We get everyone out the door and take and extended walk around the block to make sure all is right in the neighborhood. Strummer pulls, I correct...Strummer pulls I correct...Strummer pulls I correct. This goes on. We run a little. Eventually he gets tired of pulling and decides he wants to carry his own leash. This is fun except it is taking its tole on our leashes. He likes to walk with things in his mouth. Joe strummer will pick up a leaf and carry it. One morning he picked up an apple half way through our walk and carried it home.
To save the leashes I started walking with his rope toy in my pocket. I decided it would be good to bring something for him to carry. On our morning walk Strummer started playing and leaping and looking for a good spot on the lead to grab hold. When he thought my hand was the place I decided to break out his toy. He carried it for awhile and dropped it. I looked down to pick up the rope and woke up a little when I realized it was covered in blood. I reached down to pick it up and was even more surprised when I saw that my hand was covered in blood. Not just a few smudges but full on covered in blood slasher movie style. I checked the dog. The dog was fine. I assumed he lost a tooth (they can bleed a lot from that) or bit his tongue and when he had his mouth around my hand it came off on me.
It would not have been a big deal only that I was left with the dilemma of what to do with a bloody hand. Dog blood none the less. I did not want to wipe it on my clothes. I had no choice but to continue on and hope I did not cross paths with anyone. I am sure it would have at the very least raised a few eyebrows.
I love him dearly but dogs are gross.

Union Station and Train Girl

In Old Town Portland sits Portland's train station, Union Station. Union Station was built in 1896. It was considered to be the finest rail station west of St. Louis and the hub of the northwest railways. It is built of sandstone and brick in the Italian Renaissance style With a 150 foot clock tower that stands over the three story building. Later a neon "Go By Train" sign was added which has since become a Portland icon. Inside the walls are of marble and art deco light fixtures hang from the three+ story high ornate ceiling. Sun light shines in from the 2nd and third story windows putting on an amazing dance of light on the marble. One hundred years later in 1996 the train station took on renovation that brought it back to its wonder years. The original wooden seats, fixtures and light up signage were kept in place. Stepping into Union Station is like stepping into a gauzy World War II movie scene.
Passengers waiting for their train to board sit and stand by their worn leather luggage, poised in their travel clothes and various military uniforms. A young man and woman stand on the platform in the mist. She in a charcoal gray pencil skirt, pink cardigan sweater and high heeled pumps and he his bell bottomed sailor uniform. They are having one last embrace before he boards the train and heads off to war. They tear apart from each other as they hear "all aboard, last call...", the train pulls out and she chases it for a few minutes crying I love you. The train leaves her behind and she is left to her sobs and tears and the uncertainty of their future and the future of our country and world.
However, the reality of people talking on cell phones and using laptops keep me spending too much time in the day dream I have stepped into. Too bad the train station couldn't be a reality free zone and leave me to over romanticising this form of travel.
This is where my 48 hour train adventure started. I convinced my children plus one that this would be a great way to travel and get to Grand Junction Colorado where I would have a tearful reunion with my own soldier. There is a bench against the brick wall outside the entrance under the Union Station, Portland Oregon sign. I am sure everyone starting a vacation at this train station gets their picture taken under this sign. We did of course as well. Sitting in the middle of the bench all by himself was a little boy. He appeared to be around seven years of age and out of a modern day Oliver Twist story. I don't believe he spoke much English and we could not ask him to move so we sat around him and included him in our group photo. From then on we referred to him as "Train Boy". Train Boy did have a dad, we saw them together later on our train and he provided entertainment as we had Train Boy sightings and made up Train Boy stories.
Inside the station we met "Mr. Conductor" and checked in and then waited. You do a lot of the waiting part when traveling by train. Hours and hours of waiting. they never leave on time and then once you are moving you will wait more and sometimes wait in the middle of nowhere. It turns out that Amtrak leases the lines from freight companies and the freight trains have the right of way. Frequently you will stop, sometimes for a few minutes and sometimes for hours while a freight train works its way around you.
Waiting in the station to be called "all aboard" we discovered "Train Girl". Train Girl looked like she just stepped out of the before mentioned movie. She was sitting with perfect posture, long legs crossed in a chair reading a book. Dressed in a black pencil skirt, soft yellow sweater, a red scarf tied around her neck and a pair of vintage white pumps helped to show off her long legs. Train Girl's makeup was flawless, a soft matte finish and bright red lipstick. Her hair was pulled back into kind of a partial French twist. Sitting at her feet was a vintage round leather suitcase and a big floppy hat rested on top of it. In her lap was a bright red clutch purse. She was amazing. We all wanted to be her.
After boarding our train, the Coast Starlight, (doesn't that sound romantic?) we situated ourselves. Figured out who was sitting with who, organized our luggage and other things. We had enough food for five people traveling for two days, cooler, blankets, pillows, games and music. Amtrak does not provide much if you are traveling coach class. We tested our seats to see how far they would recline and how comfortable the foot rests were. We got used to the steady hard swaying of the train and the noises it made. Then it was time to explore and spy on Train Girl. We pretended to take pictures of each other so we could get her in the back ground. We followed her into the lounge car and the movie car and made up stories about who she was and where she was going. She was always looked wonderful. We are not completely crazy stalkers had fun on our own. Reading, games, napping,day dreaming and wandering through the cars. We watched "Because of Winn Dixie" in the movie car. Who wouldn't love to see Dave Matthews singing barefoot to the animals. We slept.
The next morning we caught up with Train Girl again. She was still completely put together. Wearing a new outfit of the same quality, no wrinkles, hair done and makeup applied. She looked fresh and well rested. Somehow she was able to pull this off effortlessly. Later we saw her sitting in an observation car having an intense conversation with an exotic looking gentleman. I am sure it was some deep philosophic conversation or they were solving the world's problems. We parted ways half way to our destination in San Francisco. She stayed on the train headed south for Los Angeles, or Mexico, or maybe even Argentina. We never talked to her. I supposed we didn't want to risk a chance of ruining our idea of who we wanted her to be. We got off the train and waited for another heading east, one that would get us to Colorado. The California Zephyr.

In the night

There is a time of night not many get to experience. It is my favorite. It is reserved for people with twisted clocks like mine. It doesn't last very long. There are just a few fleeting minutes when you catch the night at just this time. It happens after the bars and restaurants have closed and the patrons and the crazies of these places have made it into cabs and other places and off the streets. It is not yet the middle of the night. That comes later when it is more eerily quiet and cold and lonely. This time of the night does not have a name yet but could really use one. The "wee hours" is too silly, "middle of the night" sounds lonely and sad, the "midnight hours" might work but it really doesn't seem capture it. It needs a name. Maybe I will have a contest and offer a free twix bar to whoever wins.
Not many get to experience this time of the night. It is quiet. Cabs shoot by. The hustle is off the streets and the buildings have time to take a deep breath and acknowledge each other. They acknowledge me and I get a little building spiritual head nod as I walk past. You can feel the city letting out a sigh...kicking back on it's couch and putting it's feet up on it's coffee table. If it could the city would take the top off a beer and maybe light a cigarette. For some reason it is usually drizzling at this time of night and if it is not it should be. That just adds to the flavor.

Those of us out at this time of night share similar stories. We've moved the last straggling customers out of the building. Garbage has been taken to the street, floors mopped, areas restocked and ready for tomorrow. Tips counted and shared, stories and complaints from the night unburdened.
I step out into the night of Portland. Walk past the ghost bike. Lights reflect and twinkle from the water on the street. I stand up tall and take a big breath of night air. My head held high and I feel the drizzle on my face. I am wide awake and not in a hurry. I have a chance to have my friend Portland to myself. I walk past a covered door way and see two bartenders from where I work sharing hits off a pipe. We communicate with a head nod and a smile. A man walks past me still wearing his chef pants. His white coat hanging below his winter coat. A head nod. I round the corner and two individuals are loading garbage bags into a dumpster. In the window of a local spot a few of the employees are gathered around the closed bar sharing an end of the evening drink. I get into my car and drive home.

I like teenagers

I had the privilege of being in a local high school the other day. This happened to be at a time when classes were changing. A big high school. The kind with 2000 kids plus. I had a great observation point at a major intersection. I was reminded that just like snowflakes, no two teens are alike. Several factors affect snowflake and teenager formation. Temperature, air currents, humidity, dirt and dust particles all influence shape and size and affect crystal weight and durability. It is also true for teens. Dirt and dust particles make the snowflake heavier, and can cause cracks and breaks in the crystal and make it easier to melt. This also affects their durability. Snowflake formation is a dynamic process. A snowflake may encounter many different environmental conditions, sometimes melting it, sometimes causing growth, always changing its structure. A broken, melted teenager is a sad thing.
I like the diversity at this school. All the ethnicities and socioeconomic groups are adequately represented. There are so many cliques that it makes it hard to be a loner and everybody is so different that nobody seems to care if you are a little weird because it seem everybody is. It has the traditional cliques and more...the preps, skaters, goths, jocks, emos, freaks and the band geeks. But it goes deeper than this. Amongst these groups/cliques there are 1000s of individual snowflakes. The lowly freshmen boys for example. The lowest common denominator at a high school. Poor freshmen boys, they don't know how to dress, they are short, skinny, awkward in every way and picked on by everyone. Even each other. Yet even among this faction they are all different. We don't know what went on in their house this morning before they walked out the door. What music did they listen to? What movies, video games and culture influence who they are. Do they have their own warm room with a down comforter or do they step around their mom passed out drunk on the kitchen floor from the night before, while they gather some breakfast. Are they responsible for their siblings because one or both parents are missing or do they have an extended network of support consisting of parents, aunts and uncles and grandparents. These environmental conditions can cause growth, durability or melt making each one a different, intricate individual.
Everyone should take a few moments to observe teenagers. You would learn that we, our planet, are going to be OK. This generation will overcome, rise above and I strongly believe, kick some ass. You may see them playing hard but you probably don't realize how hard they work. How serious they take their station in life and the burdens they bare. They are proud, confident generation and figuring out that they are being handed a lot of shit and understand they will be the ones that have to fix it. I think they are up for this challenge. Even the broken, melted ones.

2008

Looking forward to this year.
Things seem to be lining up in our favor.
"They say working is best because poverty is hell on a man". Not sure who "they" is but I do understand. We are both starting the year with new employment. J switched directions and took on a new career. He is now working for a grown-up company considered to be one of the top 10 places in Portland to be employed. I am helping a start up company get off the ground and working security at a local concert venue. Crazy but hopefully will provide me with some interesting things to talk about.
The girls are all a year older and doing what they are supposed to be doing. Mostly. Jack the dog continues to provide all of us with entertainment and love. We have some adventures planned for the year. In places where they don't speak English and roads are still unpaved.

And we are ending 2007 on a great note. Numerous gatherings and parties and chances to connect with old and current friends. Friends from afar coming in and out of town. A friend's wedding to tie it all together. Too much good food and an iron chef competition is happening at our house before the end of the year. Christmas was nice. Added bonus on Christmas Day. We were watching It's a Wonderful Life. The scene at the end when George Baily finally figures it out. He is running through the streets and the snow is coming down, hard. It started snowing at that point for us. I don't think it has snowed on Christmas Day in Portland for 18 years. It was lovely.
I think I will like 2008.

Bouncer School

A few weeks ago I had to take a day long class I refer to as "Bouncer School" or "8 hours of my life I will never get back". It really has nothing to do with the new job I am starting at the Crystal as a security person/bouncer. It is a ridiculous licence that the state of Oregon makes you get. Kiss my ass Oregon. The licensing part of it would not be bad, the problem is that they lump all security positions together. The class only covers one section of this broad position. Store security guards. If I ever want to catch shoplifters at Walmart I am golden. However this will never happen. Because first of all it would require me to set foot in a Walmart and I can't see myself doing that. In fact no one in my bouncer class wants to do that either. My class consisted of two professional body guards, a strip club bouncer and 2 others like me who just want to work at the Crystal in hopes we can hear some fun music and make a little money.
We had an hour lunch break and I had big plans of going to my car and taking a nap. I only had four hours of sleep the night before. I was a little hungover and crabby. Heading out I was stopped by a fellow bouncer school attendee. He was 6'4, 300 pounds and red hair with a mullet down to his waist. He invited me to go across the street and have lunch at the deli. I did not want to be that snotty girl that is above it all so I said sure. Besides you never know when you are going to need a 300 pound red headed body guard in your corner. Someday it might be good to be able to pull that out of your pocket. The deli we went to is really one of those bars where people play video poker and keno. I had never been in such a place. This was a whole new world for me. At what point when I left my home did I cross the state line and end up in Reno. How this happened I do not know but sure enough, there I was. Reno. At 11:30 in the morning there was a guy at the bar too drunk to be served. Women were sitting at video poker machines with pitchers of beer while they argued on their cell phones with their children. I ate my BLT and made conversation with my new body guard friend. Please don't ask me to play pool. He did.
I finished the class, passed my test 49 out of 50. I was finger printed twice, had my criminal background paperwork notarized and now I am officially licensed to ask you to play nice at the Crystal.

Athens Greece, not Athens Georgia

To excited to be tired, lacking in sleep but my senses were heightened. The smells were more distinct, I was seeing things in technicolor and hearing in surround sound. The sounds were not blended together like they frequently are. They were distinct. Athens is a crazy place. We made our way through the airport and located the subway that would take us across the city. There was a hostel that had a bunk bed waiting with our names on it. We left the safety of the tourist areas and the signs with English translations for a neighborhood with an affordable bed.

I was equipped with some photo copied disjointed maps from a travel book and and address for the Aphrodite Hostel. Climbed the stairs of the subway station for the city above. It had just finished storming. This working class neighborhood I was in felt gritty. It had the feel of a black and white movie from decades ago. A kind of artsy movie that only plays at small theatres and comes with subtitles. This was where Jesus and Peter and Paul and the others had walked 1000s of years before and you could still feel the dust of their foot prints mixed up and swirling with the dust and rain of today. I stepped carefully, not wanting to step on the wrong pebble for fear it could be considered an artifact.

The street signs were written in Greek characters. Our maps were in English letters. Instantly I noticed the weight of my backpack. Stopped a few people and pointed at my map and my address and received smiles and shoulder shrugs. Got yelled at by a hotel owner for bothering him when I had no intention of staying there. Ran into a girl with a back pack, she was American. Yeah, a new friend. "Where are you going?", "The Aristotle Hostel", "No way, so are we", we walked together and made small talk. Three blocks later I realized... I am going to the Aphrodite's not Aristotle. Oops, oh well. "Goodbye".

The neighborhood was made of tall skinny buildings that held apartments and funky little shops on the bottom levels. The store fronts consisted of big open garage type doors. Sounds of people arguing, talking and laughing came from these places. Motorcycles were everywhere and cars parked on sidewalks. People were cooking dinner. I had been in hallways wider then these streets. Things were still dripping with the rain that had recently stopped. It was warm. We found the Aphrodite. Gave them some cash and were issued a set of sheets and a key which also let us turn on the lights in our little room on the 5th floor. The elevator was old school. Big heavy metal doors that you opened and closed yourself. The room was bare. It consisted of a wooden table and chair and two sets of bunk beds. The beds were naked except for a folded blanket at the end of each. Dropped my stuff and left.

In the basement of this building was a bar of sorts. Small, tiny, dark. It was in an industrial looking kind of cage. There was a bar across one end that fit maybe three bar stools and a spot or two to stand. A bench along one side that had a couple of tiny tables. In the back was a large table that was made for maybe eight people. This was all there was room for. At the large table a group of ten or twelve playing quarters. They were from all over the world speaking different languages. Somehow the universal language of drinking games brings us all together. Smiling, laughing, slamming, clinking glasses. It was wonderful. Everyone in this closet size room was smoking. It was hard to see with the poor lighting and cloud of heavy smoke. The quarter playing group resembled that barroom scene in the original Starwars. The bar that Han Solo and Chewbacca show up at on the strange planet that is full of all the crazy aliens. That is what it felt like. Ordered a beer and along with it was handed a shot of ouzo. I forgot about the ouzo. Greece's national drink. It was served in a plastic shot glass lined with blinking LED lights. Not sure what to do with it I slammed it. Later I found out this was wrong. It is an aperitif meant to be sipped slowly. Now I felt warm and a little crazed from being awake for over 24 hours. The room was spinning. Left the basement bar and and headed out on the streets. Now for some food and some fresh air.....I'll plenty of time to sleep when I'm dead.

Random thoughts today.

It is a pink flowered rain boots kind of day. I wish I had an umbrella to match.

The post office annoys me. I like the concept. Think it is amazing. A person can put a cute little sticker on the corner of a package or an envelope and some how that package gets to where ever you want it to go. It is really pretty amazing. That address can be anywhere in the world and your package will get there. Even a grass hut in Bangladesh. But the post office people annoy me. They must post that in their job description. Do not apply if you are not annoying.

Crimson misses her best friend Clover. We were kind of cute that night. Don't forget....boys are stupid, babies are worse and you will kick ass in SOUTH AFRICA!

I love Fridays! Happy hour, some live music, a glass of wine or three.

Job interviews are not fun. No matter how much in your mind you think you have gone over every question they could ever possibly ask you, they always have one question that totally knocks you on your ass. My one from yesterday..."When is a time you did not follow directions and what were the results". Job interviews are the adult version of picking sides for a team when you were in elementary school.

Why do base players sing with a base voice?

I can't wait for Thanksgiving!

Cabaret, oh cabaret, oh cabaret

Lemon loves anniversary week. or translate that to...treat me like a princess week.
Thank you.
Breakfast in town at Milo's. The beach, that was nice. Perfectly filled days of sunshine, not getting out of bed until noon, rush to make the 2:00 breakfast cut off, salt water taffy. It was really fun dancing with you at that little bar to that groovy blues band. Funny. I liked our "quaint" hotel room. It was pretty cool how you made it where I could hold the sun up in my hands. I did my best to keep it up a little longer but it did end up sinking into the ocean anyway.

Dinner at LeHappy. For that matter dinner at all my favorite places during anniversary week. LeHappy, Jakes and Masu. I would share a steak with you anyday, rare please. Yes, I am spoiled.

And on Tuesday, that box from the bakery bar. What kind of delectable baked good did you bring me? Wait, what's this...not a baked good. An IPOD! All of my best friends wrapped up in a sweet, neat, little 4GB package encased in shiny blue metal.
Blue like a frozen blue raspberry otter pop on a hot August day. (do you like that little description? I am learning how to write.) Or I could say, blue like the water as it hits the white sand on a Panama City Beach. I could say blue like my bike but hardly anyone would know what that means. Cute how it matches my bike. Don't worry. I will not attempt to ride my bike while using the IPOD. You probably remember that little incident last summer when I was trying to talk to Tara on my phone while riding my bike. I had to break it in at some point. Too bad it was my first time on it.
Wax on! That was for you. But I do admit I am getting a lot of enjoyment out of that experience. I will visit my new friend Jeven again. That night at Jakes, perfect. Lemondrops, martinis and wine. It is fun pretending we are grownups.

And then Cabaret. What a feast. It was fun how you sent me out armed with nothing but a max ticket and a texted address on my cell phone. I was really surprised. It was fun rushing for tickets. You know I secretly want to be Storm Large but I don't think at 5'1" I could ever measure up to her 6' stature.
Dinner at Masu. (Yes, I was the girl that used to pick you up from the airport and take you here.) I loved sitting by the window. Late at night the rain was blowing sideways but we had sexy cocktails and sushi in front of us. What a work of art. And the DJ played on.
Thank you.
But don't think this lets you off the hook. I still expect you to take me to Cuba and the other nine yet to be determined places on my list. You could add Vietnam's Cat Ba Island to the list. Considered to be the 8th wonder of the world. For you, I will continue to smuggle your contraband across international borders.

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josh ritter

I am a little crazy over Josh Ritter right now. Maybe a little too crazy. I am this close...(if you could see my finger and thumb they are held up about a quarter of an inch apart)...that is how close I am to skipping town and going all Penny Lane on him.
It started on a drive home from Boise. I had seven hours in the car alone. To keep me company J bought a couple of new CDs to listen to. Friends for the road. It was love at first site. I even had to pull over and read the lyrics on the CD jacket so I would know exactly what I was singing along to. I used the repeat button a lot that night.
Then a month later I saw Josh Ritter at the Aladdin in Ptown. That was all it took. Now I am head over heals crazy on Josh. Turns out he looks just like my friend Jason S. His show was amazing. Head tilted back, eyes closed and oh that smile.
He played and sang and told stories and we all sang along. Josh reminded me of Snoopy from the Charlie Brown cartoons when he does his little happy Snoopy dance. I caught that contagious smile and followed it with an occasional giggle. He owned us. Flirting with the crowd, teasing us. He brought us to the edge of our toes while he riffed on his guitar and we waited for that hook to come back around. His band shared his enthusiasm. I was introduced to other songs that weren't on my CD. Girl in the War, Monster Ballads, Wolves and Good Man. This guy is good.
I assumed this was all for us. Just for Portland. Being the obsessed fan that I am I did what anyone else would do. A little internet stalking never hurts. I watched You Tube videos and found FabChannel.com. FabChannel is from the Paradiso in Amsterdam. An Amsterdam equivalent to the Portland Aladdin. Their website streams past concerts. Hundreds to choose from. And a couple from Josh Ritter. Anyway, turns out he is cheating on us. He performs in this manner all over the world not just Portland. That took some getting used to. Guess I have to be OK with sharing him.